Let’s see:
- Partner of 3 years and 11 months broke up with me near the end of July.
- I went through bottom surgery in June and still recovering.
- I’m supposed to be performing post-surgery care that requires a private room, a shower and being uninterrupted for about 45 minutes. And if I don’t do them, then I risk serious irreversible complications.
- Partner put me to live with their awful ex-wife who obviously doesn’t like me one bit.
- (Former) In-laws? Basically told me to f**k off after what feels like years of taking care of their kid. Thanks, G***.
- I refused some money he offered out of politeness and under the impression from my ex that it was all just temporary, but I later learned from my ex that my “supposed family” in-laws didn’t want me. Shocker.
- Did someone say ‘credit card debt’? (Let’s see…a balance of $8500?!!)
- Where’s Freyja (my cat)? Dana (the ex-wife) didn’t like her after she peed on some toilet paper (kind of my fault. I was too stressed to keep her litter box clean), so I had to send her back to my ex. It was for the best, but now I’m going to have to wrestle my ex to get my baby back (I paid for her adoption as well).
- Spent pretty much all of my money on the house we were living in…that’s owned by the dad (haha, oh boy). Guess who isn’t going to see any return on that “investment” ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
- Post-surgery complications. I’ve now gone thrice to the ER (Emergency Response). Two physical (post-surgery complications) and one mental. Guess who also learned they have a UTI? And I haven’t even had the pleasure of having penetrative sex yet.
- The Toronto Housing Crisis. Find a place to rent? Difficulty Level: Hard. Find a place to rent with $733 ($390 for shelter, $343 for other basic needs) in total every month from Ontario Works (OW)/social assistance? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA…no. Expect a single room in Toronto to start at $1000, bud. And it’s probably co-occupied.
- Finding a job? Bad. Finding a job when you’re supposed to be recovering from surgery and not working? Worse.
- And do all of that…in a month? (That’s what my ex and Dana told me) Mega oof.
This was the start of September when she went to my ex. - I didn’t even have any friends in Toronto, much less someone who can spontaneously house someone. (Although I have recently met some good friends in general ✌️)
- And lastly, my disabilities, both mental and physical.
I’ve wanted to kill myself in the past, and my self-harm has also been noted. But damn, this actually made me thoroughly think of a way to kill myself. I had a whole plan and everything too.
I can’t even drink myself to death because that unfortunately requires money. ლ(ಠ_ಠლ)
I think the one huge saving grace here is that I got approved for ODSP (Ontario Disability Support Program) which will dramatically increase my social assistance. And in less than a month, no less (that’s got to be a new record, right? It usually takes three months and waaaaay too much paperwork.)
Like, that’s how bad my situation is lol ODSP didn’t even wait until I submitted my own documents (I believe I have my former caseworker in Sudbury and my NP (Nurse Practitioner) for that. Goddess bless their souls (♡ T◡T ) )
Now I’m just waiting to hear from my new caseworker now so I have access to the new funding and assistance…
…should be any day now.
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*looks at calendar*
*weeks have gone by*
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*sweats*
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[Update – November 16th 2024]
Follow-Up Article: What In The Maple Leaf F**K Is Going On At The ODSP Offices?